Post by XxL0STxX on Mar 11, 2005 23:22:02 GMT -5
**I have a secret**
i have a sercret hidden inside
i don't want to say
what i think
if i do
my life will break
my family will hate
the things i do
are my choice
so why do they controll?
is it not my choice?
are we all living a lie?
i am
i have my entire life
i wish i hadn't
i have a secret
one hidden inside
i have no one to turn to
where do i go?
do i hide in the darkness?
pretend nothing's happing?
this secret is big
no one will understand
what do i do?
if i don't find out soon
i'll end up cutting again
:::A New Beginning:::
My world is dark
walls closing in
The air I breathe
is much to thin
The space I take up
is wasteful at that
I don't deserve to be here
my head would say
Then the earth stopped spinning
all sound was still
My heart was racing
the meaning of life I could feel
So I look forward not back
I see a light shinning so bright
I take a step forward
again and again
Until I reach it
a new beginning
cutting to deep...
these cuts are to deep.
i cant feel the blade anymore.
im bleeding.
and i cant stop.
someone catch me just in time.
this was a lie.
im not going to try.
im giving up this life.
some one hold me as i cry.
you say that you see me.
and that you'll try.
but you wont say a word when i walk by.
cant you see me.
cant you hear me.
im screaming.
im crying.
cant you see.
im hurting inside.
im falling apart.
and i thought you'd be here.
it was a lie.
im not going to try.
its tearing me up inside.
there are to many promises you're trying to keep.
...well im cutting to deep
i still hate you!!!
i hate you.i dont know you at all aNYmore.dont try to tell me what to do.you should know by now i wont listen to you.i dont care....I DONT KNOW YOU LIKE I DID!so i step back...i dont want you here.i hurt more now than i did before.leave me alone. i know ppl care about me.so shut up.its like no matter what i write.no matter what i say.no matter HOW LOUD I SCREAM!!!!YOU JUST WONT HEAR ME!!!!i hate you.get out of my head.stop pretending.you're never there.not ever.you say "hey","hi","hello","whats up?","how are you doing?".......but when i reply...you just say "okay"....or "yeah...".......WTF??!!SO MUCH FOR BEING FRIENDS.SO MUCH FOR CARING."i cant help you.".....so you're givin up on me too?!!its like i dont know you.its liike you're kicking me while im down......screw you!
I STILL HATE YOU!!!!!!
it's not okay...
i sit alone
people stare
i thought to miself...
hoping...
that today would be a little different
and maybe today i'll be a little bit happier
but i'm not
i should stop hoping
it's never going to change
they say "how sad."
they say "poor thing"
but things wont change
they never will
they don't know...
...and...
it's not okay
ProBleM
dark despair of nothingness
i hide in a dark corner away from the world
the pain
the fear
i cant controle it
so i take a knive to my arm
i cut a slight slit
it's not enough
so i cut again
it's the only pain i can control
i have a problem...
that i control with a knive
Puzzle
my life is a puzzle
the pieces trying 2 fit
some pieces are lost
some pieces have been taken
so what do u do
when life is all broken?
The way i feel
i feel my wings have broken
in your hands
the wind has crushed them
i am falling
falling so fast
someone catch me
but no one has
i've hit the ground
there's nothing left
no one will help me
is no 1 there?
have i always been alone?
someone tell me
tell me please
i need to know
if i have been waiting for someone,
someone who was never really there
untitled
i cried so hard.
i tried to reach out.
and no matter what the same result.
no one cared.
no one wanted me there.
as i cut my self.
i relized how i liked this pain.
it was so controled.
no one cared.
and no one was listening.
they all said i hate you.
and they told me to leave.
so unloved.
so unwanted.
always messed up.
never did anything right.
just wanted to please you.
so you would hold me tight.
so everything would be alright.
walk with me.
want close my eyes.
and sleep forever.
want to let this go.
and think of it never.
not so proud of me now.
im so wounded.so broken*.
so many words that should have been leaft unspoken.
i dont want you to go away.
i wish id somehow want to stay.
im slipping away.
im losing hope.
ill lay down this pointless lie.
and ill start to try.
just give some time.
and keep me in line.
pull me back when i start to fall.
but dont ignor me when i wont call.
cuz im scared to say.
dont want to come to you still bleeding.
everyone can see these scars...
all the gashes upon this body.
they can see my broken soul.
they can can tell.
i dont need to say.
so when im walking alone.
walk with me.
when im bleeding.
help heal me.
help me build these bridges that i have already burned.
<3
i have a sercret hidden inside
i don't want to say
what i think
if i do
my life will break
my family will hate
the things i do
are my choice
so why do they controll?
is it not my choice?
are we all living a lie?
i am
i have my entire life
i wish i hadn't
i have a secret
one hidden inside
i have no one to turn to
where do i go?
do i hide in the darkness?
pretend nothing's happing?
this secret is big
no one will understand
what do i do?
if i don't find out soon
i'll end up cutting again
:::A New Beginning:::
My world is dark
walls closing in
The air I breathe
is much to thin
The space I take up
is wasteful at that
I don't deserve to be here
my head would say
Then the earth stopped spinning
all sound was still
My heart was racing
the meaning of life I could feel
So I look forward not back
I see a light shinning so bright
I take a step forward
again and again
Until I reach it
a new beginning
cutting to deep...
these cuts are to deep.
i cant feel the blade anymore.
im bleeding.
and i cant stop.
someone catch me just in time.
this was a lie.
im not going to try.
im giving up this life.
some one hold me as i cry.
you say that you see me.
and that you'll try.
but you wont say a word when i walk by.
cant you see me.
cant you hear me.
im screaming.
im crying.
cant you see.
im hurting inside.
im falling apart.
and i thought you'd be here.
it was a lie.
im not going to try.
its tearing me up inside.
there are to many promises you're trying to keep.
...well im cutting to deep
i still hate you!!!
i hate you.i dont know you at all aNYmore.dont try to tell me what to do.you should know by now i wont listen to you.i dont care....I DONT KNOW YOU LIKE I DID!so i step back...i dont want you here.i hurt more now than i did before.leave me alone. i know ppl care about me.so shut up.its like no matter what i write.no matter what i say.no matter HOW LOUD I SCREAM!!!!YOU JUST WONT HEAR ME!!!!i hate you.get out of my head.stop pretending.you're never there.not ever.you say "hey","hi","hello","whats up?","how are you doing?".......but when i reply...you just say "okay"....or "yeah...".......WTF??!!SO MUCH FOR BEING FRIENDS.SO MUCH FOR CARING."i cant help you.".....so you're givin up on me too?!!its like i dont know you.its liike you're kicking me while im down......screw you!
I STILL HATE YOU!!!!!!
it's not okay...
i sit alone
people stare
i thought to miself...
hoping...
that today would be a little different
and maybe today i'll be a little bit happier
but i'm not
i should stop hoping
it's never going to change
they say "how sad."
they say "poor thing"
but things wont change
they never will
they don't know...
...and...
it's not okay
ProBleM
dark despair of nothingness
i hide in a dark corner away from the world
the pain
the fear
i cant controle it
so i take a knive to my arm
i cut a slight slit
it's not enough
so i cut again
it's the only pain i can control
i have a problem...
that i control with a knive
Puzzle
my life is a puzzle
the pieces trying 2 fit
some pieces are lost
some pieces have been taken
so what do u do
when life is all broken?
The way i feel
i feel my wings have broken
in your hands
the wind has crushed them
i am falling
falling so fast
someone catch me
but no one has
i've hit the ground
there's nothing left
no one will help me
is no 1 there?
have i always been alone?
someone tell me
tell me please
i need to know
if i have been waiting for someone,
someone who was never really there
untitled
i cried so hard.
i tried to reach out.
and no matter what the same result.
no one cared.
no one wanted me there.
as i cut my self.
i relized how i liked this pain.
it was so controled.
no one cared.
and no one was listening.
they all said i hate you.
and they told me to leave.
so unloved.
so unwanted.
always messed up.
never did anything right.
just wanted to please you.
so you would hold me tight.
so everything would be alright.
walk with me.
want close my eyes.
and sleep forever.
want to let this go.
and think of it never.
not so proud of me now.
im so wounded.so broken*.
so many words that should have been leaft unspoken.
i dont want you to go away.
i wish id somehow want to stay.
im slipping away.
im losing hope.
ill lay down this pointless lie.
and ill start to try.
just give some time.
and keep me in line.
pull me back when i start to fall.
but dont ignor me when i wont call.
cuz im scared to say.
dont want to come to you still bleeding.
everyone can see these scars...
all the gashes upon this body.
they can see my broken soul.
they can can tell.
i dont need to say.
so when im walking alone.
walk with me.
when im bleeding.
help heal me.
help me build these bridges that i have already burned.
<3
